So, things with sed best boy friend have died down, after a massive heart to heart everythings fine, and now me and my 5-year-on-and-off boyfriend are officially back together now which is just amazing.
Aside from all the bad things hes done, like ignore me for his friends, not invite me to his house mates christmas meal, forget valentines day, go on holiday for a month and ignore me for the entire of it..he seems to have changed. All of a sudden the word "anniversary" was mentioned. Never in 5 years have i heard this word, although secretly i have longed for us to celebrate one, we never have.
Saturday night was a close friends 21st birthday, so we all go out dressed up as characters from games (clearly i wen dressed as Lara Croft, who else right?!) and i managed to get the other half to come along, and he did come with me, no arguments, no excuses, no fuss...he wasen ready an hour early and even dressed up as wolverine. Perfect. We had alovely evening with my friends dancing and chatting, and on the way home he just came out with it "we should work out when our anniversary is, i think it would be lovely to celebrate it considering how long we've been together".. so i asked him why all of a sudden.. and his response? "i cant imagine my life without you, im serious this time, and i mean that i want to be with you, i love you".
Wow. I was rather gobsmacked. Heres' me, just driving along, not really paying attention to alot and he springs this on me. Crazy days. I thought we were back together, but i thought it was the same as always...things are peachy for a few weeks then we just drift until the other half gets cold feet and breaks it off with me in a horiffic way.. (last time i drove away from his flat with him crying his heart out, i was watching him in my rear view mirror...just heart breaking).
Butterflies. I never thought i'd get them again with this guy. I've had a long summer to get over him and make some significant life changes before university starts, so the first few times I've seen him recently, I've felt nothing. But all of a sudden saturday morning, i awoke to find that i had them again and my heart was fluttering at the thought of seeing him that evening.
Aside from my crazy love life, I've managed to secure another part time job to go along side my university studies, i think things are looking up for me!
Until next time ...
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